Sports are a lot like like dating, I’m a total jock. I don’t however date well, fuck, I don’t even like the word dating, it gives me hives. I don't like the word. "hanging out" either (ahem). It should be more defined by ‘time”. Spending time with someone. Communicating with someone. So why with the opposite sex, do my girls always want me to define it, the spending time with someone part, or in my eyes limit it? Are you dating, fuck buddies, hanging out, bfgf, almost dating, making out naked, serious, like each other, yada, yada, yada. Being a “guys girl”, I adhere to the no drama, work alcoholic, sports addict, jock, no pink wearing, scotch on the rocks drinking, Guinness, dominating, type A person that I am. Sure I rub people the wrong way, I am not everyone’s cup of tea. I don’t mean to be blunt, I was just taught that honesty is always the best policy. So that’s how I work. I suppose since my father raised me since age 10, all on his own I learned how to do a lot of “boy” and I have an androgynous boy name to boot. I can change a tire, load and shoot a gun, throw and catch a football, probably run faster than some of you, snowboard, ski, water ski, bike, wire speakers, run cable from the attic, hot wire a light fixture, drive a standard, drive a fork lift, bait a hook, weed eat, fix the mower over the phone, count cards, cook, grill, chop wood, and belch. One thing my dad was very careful about was letting me be emotional in my own right but also to not let anyone take advantage of me, to stand on my own two feet. It made me hard and as much as I try not to wear my emotion on my sleeve, that is who I am. My dad, just yesterday, said; “you damn women, you get too emotional, take the emotion out of it and think with logic, think like a man, think like Samantha (yep my old man watches SATC)”. And so for the most part I do, I see coral every now and then and consider buying it, I can do a triple Pirouette, a Grand Jete, bake, do a smoky eye, rock the red lipstick, wear 4” heels and sew (just buttons).
So what is on the flip side odd? If I am spending time with my girl friends (which I do a lot) I don't say we are "dating" or "hanging out". If you are spending a lot of time with someone of the opposite sex that you are not just friends with, then there is always this big question lingering out there in the balance. . . is there potential? Chemistry. When you think about, it the periodic table is pretty damn big, so the combinations are endless. Dr. John Gray, “proclaims there are four stages of Chemistry: Physical, Emotional, Mental, Soul.” Physical is always the first and I feel like most important. I am a visual person, I am never going to really fall for the guys who's clothes I don't want to rip off. Aside from buttons flying, I really have to have fun with someone before I can decide if I like them, and if you are negative or cynical (PASS), that's the beginning of the emotional. Then there is the mental chemistry, my renaissance man, who can camp and wear a tux with converse and pull it off without a flaw, (My ex couldn’t read a real map and didn’t own a drill, I did) I love music, movies, books, art, getting dirty, black tie, Lollapalooza and the ballet. Those are types of mental chemistry I truly want, it’s the organic chemistry equation I haven’t been able to successfully solve, each attempt to get the right answer gets me a little closer to that A+. The fourth chemistry is Soul chemistry. And the way I interpret this is when you have physical, emotional and mental chemistry together, you feel so aligned with someone, it could allow you to fully experience a kind of unconditional love, which is your soul connecting with that person's soul (a little cheesy even for me). And the feeling generally you have at that time, is "I want to share my time/life experiences, I want to go places with this person. Whether they are eternal friends or friendly soul mates, defining a “ship” should never stop us from hanging on to the good people in this world. "Because that soul is the eternal part of us, it's eternal". So you get this feeling of, you know, you want to be with them forever. My friends I want until I die, and someday a man by my side until I die or for however long it feels right and good, down to my bones. “I’ve got Soul but I’m not a Soldier” but I'm HOLDING ON.
So what is on the flip side odd? If I am spending time with my girl friends (which I do a lot) I don't say we are "dating" or "hanging out". If you are spending a lot of time with someone of the opposite sex that you are not just friends with, then there is always this big question lingering out there in the balance. . . is there potential? Chemistry. When you think about, it the periodic table is pretty damn big, so the combinations are endless. Dr. John Gray, “proclaims there are four stages of Chemistry: Physical, Emotional, Mental, Soul.” Physical is always the first and I feel like most important. I am a visual person, I am never going to really fall for the guys who's clothes I don't want to rip off. Aside from buttons flying, I really have to have fun with someone before I can decide if I like them, and if you are negative or cynical (PASS), that's the beginning of the emotional. Then there is the mental chemistry, my renaissance man, who can camp and wear a tux with converse and pull it off without a flaw, (My ex couldn’t read a real map and didn’t own a drill, I did) I love music, movies, books, art, getting dirty, black tie, Lollapalooza and the ballet. Those are types of mental chemistry I truly want, it’s the organic chemistry equation I haven’t been able to successfully solve, each attempt to get the right answer gets me a little closer to that A+. The fourth chemistry is Soul chemistry. And the way I interpret this is when you have physical, emotional and mental chemistry together, you feel so aligned with someone, it could allow you to fully experience a kind of unconditional love, which is your soul connecting with that person's soul (a little cheesy even for me). And the feeling generally you have at that time, is "I want to share my time/life experiences, I want to go places with this person. Whether they are eternal friends or friendly soul mates, defining a “ship” should never stop us from hanging on to the good people in this world. "Because that soul is the eternal part of us, it's eternal". So you get this feeling of, you know, you want to be with them forever. My friends I want until I die, and someday a man by my side until I die or for however long it feels right and good, down to my bones. “I’ve got Soul but I’m not a Soldier” but I'm HOLDING ON.
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